I'm so far from where I've been.
I'm so far from who I used to be.

I haven't told anyone. I haven't been able to discuss certain conversations. I haven't been able to admit how much faith I've lost in the past 5 months. My life used to circle around God, but now it's so unbelievably far from that.

I don't know what this weekend will entail, but I'm scared, nervous, and very pessimistic.

I need a little bit of hope.