ive been dreaming of the same person a lot lately. it's rather annoying because i want to get rid of the thought because its only making it harder for me.
i wish there were such things as dream recorders that recorded your dream so you could play it back and decipher it. i only ever remember certain parts of my dreams, and those parts seem so insignificant and confusing.
whatever.

its 3 am. im still studying for my psych exam thats at 11 am tomorrow, and i havent touched my communication disorders material that i need to study as well. i have bio in five hours, so why sleep?

this is a lot harder than i expected.
i wanted the independence, i wanted to meet new people. i expected greatness.

but now that im here, im not myself, im not happy, im not meeting these great people i imagined. i realize how great i had it back home and how many amazing people i had in my life. i am so fortunate for that love back home. but here, i dont feel any of it.

i want to feel love. i want to not feel so alone and helpless.

help?

ive never felt more alone in my entire life.